One of those days
So it’s been one of those days today… Bubba has had a routine from around 3 months except it took me a little while to figure it out for I was more in tune with my own insistence and rigidity of how things ought to be as opposed to the actual way of how they […]
Healing our shame
I felt ashamed when I carried my baby out and put him in car seat – I felt I was useless didn’t know anything and that everyone was judging me saying things like look at her she is rubbish. And I remember how my mother always called me “rubbish” amongst other labels. Today we went […]
Search for God or Saviour to meet unmet infantile needs
What begins the yearning for a higher being such as God or spirit self? Could it be an Initial wound of separation? Are we then all born with two separation wounds, one with the higher creator and second the mothers womb and later compounded by any meets not met at the dependent stage of infancy? […]
An epiphany:
I always wondered why I had to have it all or nothing. If for example I want to run a workshop it has got to go to plan and if for any reason it doesn’t even if it’s minuscule in the bigger frame I fall apart. If I write it’s got to be the best […]
Toddler tantrums or triumphs
Just when you thought you haven’t got the will to pull that last little bit of hair you have left, you find the will in you to shift the focus back to bubba and his meltdown instead of act on your own reaction. Then magic happens. Bubba feels cared for understood and his sense of […]
My self care list
I am struggling with finding a way of extending the gap between my toddlers behaviour my own expectations my response and his reaction. I find that I have my own demands for self and those needs that I also must meet of my infants brain. How do we marry our own self care with those […]
Shame
Wow this is a big one. Did you know that each time you admonish your kid they drop their head down on shame even if not literally? And that shame dents their sense of self so that they see themselves as defective! I know that feeling through and through. Only I didn’t realise how innate […]
A little something to think about
As I parent from within some questions arise that might lead on to the inner work that is really needed in order for us to break those patterns. Honest and not so thought of but all the same spontaneous and real cut the crap type of responses to these questions might help. 1, Have you […]
Triggers
Parenthood might just be the biggest trigger for those who have had traumatic childhood and are complex ptsd survivors though I don’t know your story inside. You do. Only you do. And only you have the key to decode you. My son, has from conception pushed me into being me and integrating the wounded self, my […]