When the wait begins to grate and you are late, all you can think of is when will what you truly know really transpire in actual here and now physical reality. How long will the wait continue? The doubts creep in; you begin to hear the naysayers in your head; the scary goblins you thought you had put to rest show up again. What do you do?
Whilst there is no real issue with waiting for stuff to happen, it becomes one when it starts to take over your better sense of self. If anything, to wait is telling of an unripe harvest of all your past efforts in excavating your crap out.
When the work has really happened and you have managed to really take hold of your own shit then the magical moment comes.
You stop to wait.
You stop all the courses the workshops seminars and even visualisations.
You start to get used to the new way of being which is a relaxed state of being where there is no time on anything or a price or comparison. You relish each moment without judgement and total self acceptance. Even when you feel moments of stress these are at surface level and not those that affect the equilibrium within.
You stop to seek. You have no more questions. You just have a silent sense of “just knowing”.
You don’t need physical confirmation of this mindset as long as you really have conquered the mind. The manifestation happens in the mindset and then all else follows without any need to wait or watch. It spots in easily without stress or strain.
Difficult it is for those of us who have been conditioned to work like donkeys to get anything and we carry this even into our spiritual practices by running ourselves into burn out. When we are so used to this level of how hard it must be to achieve, when it starts to flow and come easy, we go into self sabotage if our awareness wavers. Why? The old in us wants the negative stress back!
But remember the past is long gone, we are here and now all set to continue our journeys of conscious joyful spontaneous exploration.